The Deity and The Creation

When I look to the eyes of a child, I see the innocence, the truth. I must admit that even I read various self-help books but I still have my shortcomings. Human indeed, I even commit blasphemous sins, and people would criticize me and my world would go to deep of misery because they brought me there. They punish me for not being like the commoners, I reach too absurd ideas not customary to their beliefs. Erroneous it was. It is true that I am sinner like everybody, like the cheaters, like the cynics, like the saints, the adulterers, and anyone who said they never sinned but their soul burns in hell, including me. I speak not like that. However, I cannot simply tell that there is no hell, even if I wish there is none. God or did humans created this hell? You, did you ever punish someone for his mistakes? Did you reprimand a man for his view in life? Then you have made hell!
Those who criticize and rebuke, have you known the whole truth of what is right? No, you never did nor will you know. You are no Jesus! A righteous man speak neither to condemn nor to change that man, he speak to feel what the other suffer. The man who seeks advice does not need your comment or opinion, he need yours understanding, caress, your support. A disapproval of his state is the least he need. To ignore his presence is apathy the worst thing you can do. To love the person that is only obligation you have for him. To be in good terms with him is not enough you need to touch the soul.
Let the person see the inner light in him, the good in him. The more we denounce a man, the further he goes far from God. Cruelty will arise from a man who lives in callousness. It is not tolerance but the truth that the Supreme Being is not a being of angst, a being that punishes the non-believers, and a being that is selfish and envious. God is the divine being, that in the same time your friend that forgives your mistakes, your parent who cares for you and the divinity that loves you. Incase you are in agony or pain that you cannot bear anymore the harsh realities, you feel like you are the child, feeble and fainthearted, Look for God not the judge but the lover.
To change the ways of the child, the child that only love, the child that never wants but only need, the child that the times we look to its eyes we feel the joy that the child can only bring.

About a few days ago we started our second semester. The feeling of being in "boring" classes excites me. The first day seem a little strange, there were few students roaming around the campus, some of my colleagues are still not present, and my cousins are still enrolling. The usual NDMU atmosphere have changed. I got this Eleven Minutes by Paulo Coelho, actually I started reading that book a day before the opening day. I carry the book with me so I can boast that I have a new Paulo Coelho literature with me. I immedietly look for my friends especially that coquettish girl - Vanessa. She is not present on the first class but Louella is there to recede my loneliness. Ahh by the way I still haven't change I am still that arrogant intelligent guy everyone knows. So I quickly blend in with the crowd but still stand out. I easily find ways to enjoy the first day by being the nice guy, amusing everybody with my not so close up smile. I only saw Vanessa on our Statistic class, she still has the glow that beguile half of the class. Ofcourse I am not one of those commoner who would easily fall for a murderous beauty that she has. I somehow ignore her alluring smile as she entered the class. After our class I tried talking to her and it was a success. Did I say was? It was a success but we still don't have the same closeness we had before. After I bought a notebook for the semester I went home to get a rest: I lack in sleep for a week. It's Nova's birthday by the way.
The second day I went to school at about 9:45 with luck, I easily spot Louella with -uhm- Vanessa and Polsci Friends. I lend them my precious books have a little snack, and a wonderful discussion with them. The first class is cool but we are only twenty something in the class. I love the literature class we are numerous and a lot of intellectual students. The Ecology class was suppose to be fun but the bright guy I respect most left class for another schedule. I got tired after three hours of class and three hours of doing nothing. The Educ136 class terrifies me a lot, we are just five AB students against forty education students. With the divine providence I had Louella as my classmate. I believe the recently misfortunes I had is just the few challenges I must encounter. My infatuation with Vanessa is just a trial. ugly schedules are part of life. Terror teachers will always be there. I am the valiant, wise, resilient man so why worry?

Going up!

I have just taken this IQ test and I have an increase in IQ. Last time I have taken it, I scored 118 and now I scored 127!

I am 18 years and 1 month that means I got a brain of a 22 year old guy. I am quite incredible. The average English man would score 119, that is 8 points higher.

I did great on verbal questions, I am word smart. My spatial ability ranks last, last time I scored better on spatial than any other test. It is obvious that schooling takes a great role on your IQ, I have lot of subjects that deal with verbal abilities.

I am proud of myself right now, It is true that I sound too snooty. In fact, I am boasting. Sorry but I can't help it, and I feel more better when I boast.

While taking the test I feel both worried and relax. Worried, that I may score lower next time. I feel relax because I got more time to think(lesser time pressure on Math and logical questions). That feeling of comfort probably gave me the shrewdness to answer the difficult questions.

After I have taken the test, I am a bit shocked that I scored higher than I expected. It took me some time to realize the achievement I just had, hahaha. Then after it reached my senses, I immedietly write down triumph I had.

I hope next year I take this test again and would score even better. 140 is my goal next time. It would be tougher and more complicated next year. They had a different test for adults which is different on the test I had taken.

Nukes and love, Losing The Grip

Over the past few years the threat of North Korea creating a nuclear bomb have already become a reality. I believe atleast we have lost the threat of them creating and it pose a new threat. Sounds too illogical? the news seems to dominate foreign newspaper as for me and my so called friends its nothing, apathy I call it! let me share with one apathetic story of those so called friends...

I walked w/ my so called "friends" around the campus during final examination week, as I eagerly exert the point that we should put our heads and ponder on the subject matter that we are likely to fail. But they refuse and keep touring around the University as if they have no difficulties and hardship regarding our "favorite" subject, logic! As we have reached the covered area, girl A, uh my friend stop and pose beautifully in the middle of the field and her billowing hair shined and glimmered like a beauty queen just to stare to her crush that does not even know that someone like her exist in the outstreched region of the universe. I hestitately annoy girl B, so I could somehow channel my thoughts that jealousy once again is taking over me, but instead of redirecting my thoughts I just end up agitating myself. Indignant on how few things turn out, that girl B said that I irritate her rather than making her laugh. I keep annoying them eventhough she hurts my feelings a lot, thinking that side effect of using props(as my friend B thinks of my other crushes)is taking effect, I start to loose control of what is happening around me. As we reach gate the "karag-karag" spaceship of the theist warriors arrived, giving me a sign of lost, lost that I had not let it out like a magma waiting to burst out of my heart. I reflected then my mind suddenly filled with not so great idea that I should reconsider and have contigency plan wether to tell girl A about that I have some sort of inexplicable feeling for her but I would not consider it as the word you hastily assume, love. I believe that she is not that sort of girl that I like. However somewhere in my cold heart and somehow fallen for her. Moreover affection for someone does not exactly follow intense craving, it only implies fondness. It may take a while for us to see each other through but I can wait, I know that patience is love's security.

Zigzag

I called my blog logic for some reason, first being a philosophy major my first major subject would be Logic and second I seem to like the word and it's meaning. Logic is an art of reasoning, but Logic for me is the correct and formal way of reasoning. Every reasonable man is endowed with logic but not all are logical.

zigzag

I love the idea of evolution plus the quotation that not the strongest of species that will survive nor the most intelligent but the most adaptive to change. I must change atleast so I can pass my subjects in order for me to be a full pledge priest someday.

I worry much about my near future but I don't spend time thinking over it but I make most to improve my abilities to surpass the obstacles in college life. I use to be lazy student, but after my realization I started reading materials so I can improve my reading skill which is actually important for the challenges in life ahead. I spend less now watching TV and drinking alcoholic drink, I believe that using time at its fullest will make me perspicacious in some way. Intelligence may be hereditary, that is why I don't worry much, my father graduated cum laude in BS Geology at University of the Philippines and had won many awards to prove his high intellectual capacity. I always wanted to be like my father, to win the respect of my colleagues and to be a priest someday. Intelligence could also be work out by doing your best in every aspect and if you would start believing that you can be. Intelligent people are just persistent on their work, they have the same anatomy as ours but they use it as if there is no tomorrow. Those people never gets tired for the reason they feel obliged or is that man is obliged to know his destiny. destiny is made possible because of our choice, if choose not to then we will not. The theory is easy, spend a lot of time doing choices and think less of the future it comes before you know it. I may not be a physicsit but I know that for every action there is an equal opposite reaction. If I study hard I may get good results on the examination and someday be a knowledgeable priest. God may not talk to me but he is in my heart, people may call me a fool but it will do nothing. I can change the course of my life and I will survive.